Ellen - Simply Inspiring!

I think I know what my Christmas wish is going to be this year. I'll wish, with no fear that my wish won't come true, that this world would come to know more people like Ellen. If only it was possible for me to steal a bit of Ellen's DNA so I could clone her at least a million times.

She most certainly is the guardian angel of all anguished souls on earth, with a simple act of kindness she can turn your life around by inspiring you to do so many things you never imagined you could do. Her reach is far beyond unimaginable. She's thousands miles away but I can feel her presence even in my darkest hours. There might not be Santa Claus, Easter Bunny or other mythical creatures but there is Ellen and that's good enough for me and for many millions of people around the globe. She will never rest until she can change lives, as many as possible.

From now on I will consider it my responsibility to bring you the most inspiring acts of kindness that she does to your attention. She makes my heart beat slower, she makes it ache less, she makes me breath easier, she makes my days brighter, she's my life support, I simply love her. She's the one person all future friends should be measured up.  She's one of the very few people who keeps restoring my faith in this world on a daily basis. All the words in the entire world won't be enough to express my gratitude towards her and how thankful i am that she exists so I'll let the following video of hers to show what she is capable of. Hope it will make you feel all the things I've been feeling ever since I've come to know her. Sit back and let her kindness flow into your heart and soul.

Now, I don't have a clue of why the comments have been disabled on YouTube but if you have anything to say you may do so right below.

Also I'd like to know a few things from you.

In what ways does she change your life?

What does she mean to you personally?

Be kind to one another and maybe you'll get to change a life. Like Ellen does.

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It doesn't happen very often when total strangers who didn't know you from before, out of the blue, did something amazing for you. Also, it doesn't happen very often for people who get to know you, land you a hand and change your life completely, and all they ask in return is to pass that kindness onto others. They ask you to pay it forward. I call this kind of people angels whom I'm thankful as they manage to restore my faith in this place called earth. 

By watching these people I find strength to carry on when there are no reasons to do so and when there are no signs of anything changing, they inspire me to keep evolving not just into a better person but in the best person a mankind can ever know. I wish good qualities would be passed onto our kids and by the time they reach their tenth generation they'd have no flaws or whatsoever. The evolution of the mankind would be complete and all that would be left would be to sit back and enjoy the ride. I still have faith for that to happen even if I won't see that light of that day.

How do we find the balance between the bad things that keep happening to us and the good things that occur so rarely? 

I just can't get beyond the questions and I keep cutting myself with millions of could-have-beens. Not my words, don't wanna take credit for them but you'll read them in Imogen Heap's song called "Wait It Out", a song I'm simply madly in love with, it is not possible for it to define my life more. Through that song Imogen is voicing the pain of the unknown of millions of people around the globe and it's intense and beautiful and painful, all at the same time. She took a piece of my heart with no meaning to ever return it and for that I couldn't love her more, it's simply not possible because my love for her music reached the highest limits long time ago.

These are the people who's examples are beyond worth being followed, this is the kind of people I wanna meet more. A smile, a good word, a kind act, a song are among the many things they can give you to make your life easier and worth living it to your full potential. When you have the means to do good things to total strangers seize those opportunities and take no credit for it, just wish for those acts of kindness to be multiplied and reach millions of people around the globe and only for that silently take just a small piece of credit but which will make you feel better, it will make you feel complete, I know that it does, I tried it.

Being an angel is very easy, getting to become one is a bit harder but with the right motivation you can become one in no time, all you have to do is to know what an act of selfless kindness is and spread it all around, follow the good examples and never fell a victim to the bad ones, but even those can often serve as inspiration to never do them and learn from the mistakes made by others and not by you.I was once asked, how could I know how to love when I was not loved as any child needed to be loved? It doesn't always apply and being empathetic proves it. Sometimes, if you're lucky, you'll get to see it in others, a love directed towards you and if it's the right kind you'll feel it within your core. Wouldn't you want to spread around so others would feel what you felt?

I am lucky to know such people, personally or not, around me or not, who know me or who don't, in different corners of the earth they manage to spread light on my journey towards the things I wish to happen and towards the people I wanna meet, they're simply angels who will never fall, more than that, they will find other angels and send them to you when you need the most, they will touch your soul like no one did before and maybe they'll find the angel withing you. I wanna be one and I'm sure I'm on my way to becoming one, having trouble reaching masses of people, big or small, but I still have a small shred of faith that that is going to change, the beauty around me keeps me believing in that, even if the many nightmares I have are trying to prove the opposite. Right now I'm enjoying my rare moments when I believe that tomorrow is going to be the day when someone is going to reach out and ask me "Would you be my angel? Would you go around the globe and spread the kindness of your heart?". I know I am a good person and I deserve more than this, it will seem that I'm making excuse and maybe I am, but a lot has happened to me and before I learned how to live my life I forgot how to do that first. Someone dear to me said that before I could inspire others I need to be inspired first and for that I need change. Unfortunately, change is one of the many things I'm powerless to make on my own, I need help. Everyone needs help sometimes, why wouldn't I be entitled of it too?

If I had the chance to be somewhere else I'd choose to be in America, it's been like forever since I've wanted to live there, specifically on the West Coast, in the city of angels, making my dream of becoming an actor for the small screen true. The best part of it would be making an impact on millions of people by telling them all these good things that can happen to them. The thing about me is when I wish for something I think of how it would impact others as I simply can't imagine living just for myself, I know for sure that I'm anything but selfish, that's one negative quality I simply despise. I'd like to found a charity in the name of someone great and inspiring and fight for a better quality of life for millions of people around the globe, make in impact and make sharing and giving a part of the daily routine of everyone on earth, of course that's too big of a challenge but I'd be happy to settle for a several millions of people to say the least, ambitious you'd say but not impossible, after all I wouldn't be alone, I'd probably gather the most amazing team who I'd call simply "angels". I wanna change lives so they could live their lives as they want: better, brighter, happier. But I can't feel anything but powerless and it's killing me that I can't do what I intend to do, after all making others happy would make me happy, I've always liked this kind of selfishness.

I guess I'll stop rambling right about .... now.

Before saying my ending phrase I wanna ask you. What does a person have to do to deserve your help?

Also, in these times of despair and when nothing seems to change what would your advice be to me? How would you help me change my life? 

Be kind to one another and maybe you'll get to change a life.

Colin Powell's Rules

I have a book called "Leadership: Enhancing the lesson of experience" which I browse through every now and then and today I stumbled upon Colin Powell's rules. Before proceeding with reading some cleverly written rules you gotta know who Colin Powell is. 

Colin Luther Powell (born April 5, 1937) is an American statesman and a retired four-star general in the United States Army He was the 65th United States Secretary of State, serving under President George W. Bush from 2001 to 2005. He was the first African American to serve in that position. During his military career, Powell also served as National Security Adviser (1987–1989), as Commander of the U.S. Army Forces Command (1989) and as Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff (1989–1993), holding the latter position during the Gulf War. He was the first, and so far the only, African American to serve on the Joint Chiefs of Staff.

Colin Powell's Thirteen Rules.

1.    It ain't as bad as you think. It will look better in the morning.

2.    Get mad, then get over it.

3.    Avoid having your ego so close to your position that when your position falls, your ego goes with it.

4.    It can be done!

5.    Be careful what you choose. You may get it.

6.    Don't let adverse facts stand in the way of a good decision.

7.    You can't make someone else's choices. You shouldn't let someone else make yours.

8.    Check small things.

9.    Share credit.

10.    Remain calm. Be kind.

11.    Have a vision. Be demanding.

12.    Don't take counsel of your fears or naysayers.

13.    Perpetual optimism is a force multiplier.

My personal favorite is number five, you may know another version of it "Careful what you wish for" and I think of it almost all the time 'cause to some extent it's been true for me, meaning I wished for a lot of wrong things.

Which one is your favorite?

Be kind to one another and maybe you'll get to change a life.

Action - Reaction | Stop Bullying

From a very simple stand point people are divided in two groups: Good people and bad people. Each of these two groups has its own purpose, the bad ones constantly want to hurt the good ones and all that the good ones want is to be left alone and try to make it and live their lives as best as they can. You don't have to be a genius to figure out from which group the bullies are.

At some point in our lives there are people who push us to the breaking points, if it's being done right we may be able to reach our full potential, if not we may lose our fight to live. Again, it's a no brainer figuring out what effect on us have the bullies. While the psychologists are making studies and spend their precious time studying this phenomenon and trying to come up with different complicated definitions of what bullying is more teens and kids are falling victims and very few are taking a stand against this plague, there is no other word more appropriate than "plague". It often makes me wonder about why we are the way we are, isn't there enough air, space, resources to peacefully coexist? Why some of us have the constant need to make someone else feel miserable and low? This I will never get and I'll refuse to do so, bullying has no excuse, bullying has to be punished, severely punished.

I get that some bullies had it tough and they use their failures and their suffering as an excuse to bring misery to others, and while it has been explained to them what are they doing and what kind of damage they bring they keep doing it, that's when it stops being forgivable. Some may think that bullying is a thing specific for schools and other educational institutions but that's not true, if you'll take a closer look around you you'll notice that bullying is taking place everywhere and at all times. And while some people can stand for themselves there are plenty who can't, and it's not their fault that they can't, not all were built G.I.Joes. Or they simply weren't educated to be that way, but after all, as a human being not everyone has to be built to be able to stand up for himself, I wanna believe that the men were created to peacefully coexist, I wanna believe that everyone has the right to feel secure at all times without fearing of getting hurt by another peer.

While various states around the world are fighting against terrorism, poverty, economical failures or social uprisings I think we should all fight against bullying and none of that would ever happen, the solution is very simple to find and diabolically hard to put into action. Why is that the simplest solution of them all? Because bullying is simply the mistreatment we get everyday from other peers, mistreatment that is not monitored, punished or prevented. There were so many crimes that could have been prevented if that or that or even that kid was not to be bullied when he was a kid and all his kindness and positivity has not been sucked out of him. If we all were to be kind to one another and set some ground rules for all to be respected we all could finally understand that heaven is not somewhere on another dimension but it's right here on earth, and despite natural disasters we can all stick with each other and get through everything. 

A thing that we all should finally get is that a man in pain can do a lot of destruction, so let's be kind to one another and you'll instantly feel how time is adding on people's hourglasses, they're time on earth is getting longer and longer, some of them will even get to see their grandchildren and will have no regrets of how they lived their lives 'cause they did it right, they did a lot of good deeds that went unpunished and the good memories of them and their deeds will live beyond time. 

A life without bullying is a beautiful life, let's make it happen. I won't live that long to see the day when there won't be any anguished souls, no pain caused by mean people, no tears, no screaming, no crying out for help in the middle of nowhere, no solitude, no desperation, no going crazy and no wishing to die. You don't want to be bullied and if you never were bullied don't let that happen to others, but if it's happening give them a hand and take a stand against bullying, defend them and be their hero, everybody needs a hero in their lives, be theirs, protect them and take special care, and someday they'll get to be somebody else's hero.

I found this page on facebook and it seems appropriate to invite you to give a like to it and stay informed on what we all need to do so we all could stand a chance at a full life without any bullying in it.

Ending this I'm gonna say what I usually say for quite some time now.

Be good to one another and maybe you'll get to change a life.

One Day I'll Fly Away

"One day I'll fly away
Leave all this to yesterday
Why live life from dream to dream
And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away
Fly fly away..."

That was a fragment from once my favorite song from Moulin Rouge sang by Nicole Kidman who proved that besides being a terrific actress she has an amazing voice and was able to deliver with extreme intensity and drama, not everyone is able to feel this song to his very core but most certainly that was its intention. Years have passed since I saw that movie for the first time but these lyrics have never stopped carrying the same amount of truth and I still find myself saying silently to myself that someday I'll fly away and leave all this to yesterday, be able to start a new life and make my long unfulfilled dreams reality. With every day passing I'm getting more detached from the country I live in and get attached to the country I've been dreaming to get to for a long time now - United States of America. I'm a citizen of the world so to some extent I don't care about the country I was born in but I do care about the country I identify myself with. When I say that I don't care about the country I was born in don't get me wrong, I do care about it I am just too different and my set of values and morals is just too different from the existing ones in that country. I'm not accusing it of anything, I'm just sorry that it's not able to deliver the tools to make my dreams come true while being able to live in it and not leave for another country.

Anyway, this post is going to be mash-up of my latest thoughts that weren't enough to write an individual post for each one of them. 

I love airports. I love airplanes. If someone would ask me If I wanted to live in an airport I'd probably say "hell yeah". Planes taking off, planes landing, seeing happy faces or even some sad faces, people carrying their luggage around, waiting for their flights, I find those things rather enjoyable. Once I was waiting for my flight for Frankfurt by the gate and through the speakers classic music has been purring out, I felt like I was in a movie and my life was finally turning around and everything that was about to follow was good. It's incredible how such things make me optimistic all of the sudden and happy, if you'd see my face while in an airport you'd think that I smelled some crack  I had the opportunities to fly on a Boeing 737 and Airbus 319, 320 and 321 and some other small type of airplanes but I am still craving to fly on a Boeing 747 but most importantly on an Airbus A380, the giant jumbo-jet that has been crossing the sky for years now and I am a huge fan of it, I've watched several documentaries about it and learned that this plane is a engineering marvel with lots of cutting-edge features. 

I dream someday to fly on one on my way to New York, an Airbus A380 flies everyday from Frankfurt International Airport right at 8 AM in the morning and usually it doesn't take more than eight and a half hours to land in New York's JFK airport.

Yesterday I was daydreaming of getting into the states and apply for US citizenship 'cause as long as I don't have one I can't legally work. Then, find some jobs as extras on movie or TV series sets, that way making a living, be able to save up some money and pay for acting classes and while working learning about acting for television. But of course that is not going to happen anytime soon, daydreaming is just the time of the day when I lose any ties with reality and imagine that my life is amazing and I'm doing what I love the most, helping others while I enjoy living my life. I help others now as well but I don't enjoy living. Several days ago I gave my favorite flash-drive to one of my neighbors and he managed to lose it, I was crazy mad 'cause that flash-drive was bought while visiting some friends in Germany a year ago and it was a beautiful reminder that for once I got to visit Germany and I said that I will never ever help that guy anymore but that way I'd be a jerk and one thing that I can't do is being a jerk so I ended up helping him several times after that. So, I guess, yeah, I'm bragging that I am an extraordinary person :) who is extraordinarily unlucky. 

If I were to fly somewhere that plane won't crash 'cause that would mean that I am lucky, I've been dreaming for a severe form of brain cancer and die fast, so for anyone on that plane must not worry 'cause they will safely get to their destination. 

One of many conclusion I can make based on the things I've wrote earlier is that I am more american than I am romanian, I might not carry a torch for my country but I insanely love romanian language, it's a beautiful Romanic language (also referred to as Romance or Latin language) and I am trying to speak romanian as correctly as possible on a daily basis. I will always love it, it will always have a place in my heart. While daydreaming of being an american I've managed to learn english as much as I could 'cause not being surrounded by english speaking population at some point you hit a speed limit, I mean you don't stop learning new stuff but it becomes an insanely slow process. I watch american tv everyday, I read tons of news most of them TV related, I watch american movies, follow the careers of the actors that starred in those movies, I follow the statistics of the box office, I follow the ratings for the TV Series on the air, I read reviews, I write reviews occasionally, to some extent I follow american politics and rooting for Obama for a second term of presidency, though he failed to change so many defective things in America I believe that he is more suitable for presidency than the other candidate. The music I listen mostly is american as well. S I'll say it again, I'm mostly american although I don't have American citizenship and I'll probably never get to have it. If I would go back I wouldn't change a thing about me, maybe improve something, be more blunt, more self-appreciative, more confident and less stressed, but overall I'm fine with who I am, I just wish I had more luck.

From time to time some people say about me that I am a smart person, even intelligent and that someday I'll rich unimaginable heights but that is the moment when I get sad and somehow pissed and I start asking myself "If I am that smart, and that intelligent than why can't I get out of this rabbit hole? It means only that I am not smart and intelligent at all". I wish I was dumb, 'cause somehow I imagine that dumb people live a lot more happier, they go to work, get home, have some sex and go to sleep and the cycle continues, they love their daily routine, very few things bothers them, their view on the world is pretty much tight and narrow.

My last attempt to succeed is pretty much a failure, I wrote a project "about improving Moldovan touristic image everywhere by making tourist's journeys enjoyable long before they set foot in Moldova. Moldova is a country where you can find common language with a lot of people and that's because we speak more than one language, among the many there is our national language - Romanian, but also you can find russian speakers, french speakers, english speakers, ukranian and some speaking turkish. Moldova is a country where anyone who wants can come and establish a family, we are hospitable and welcoming as long as we all, natives or not, respect the customs and the traditions of our country. As one of our former rulers, Stefan the Great (also known as Stephen III of Moldavia) once said "The lands we have now do not belong to us, but they belong to our grand grand children" and he was right, we must fight for a better life on our lands and never let others slander what others have built with blood and sweat."

But it's going incredibly slow, I mean thanks to a lady from United States and one from Germany, both preferred  to stay anonymous, thanks to them I am not at the square one anymore, thanks to them I got the funding for the six percent of the project. At the beginning I gave up twice before I got these donations, now even if I want to give up I just can't, I feel like I owe it to them, I don't wanna disappoint them so that's why I am gonna keep doing it until I get the full funding and someday be able to donate myself for other projects I will believe in. I am a strong believer of the paying forward effect, I was really inspired of that ever since I watched Pay It Forward, the movie which had Kevin Spacey, Helen Hunt and Haley Joel Osment in the main roles. 

There is no secret I wanna get rich someday but I wanna become that way for the right reasons I believe in, in this article I made kind of a bucket list of the things I wanna build, change or do. I don't need to get rich to do some of the things I daydreamed to do. There was a case last year, when a few kids all of the sudden became orphans as their parents died in a car crash and the way that TV channel told their story that some of their relatives who already had their own children took them into their family and since they were poor it was the struggle of their lives, I literally burst into tears, I took my phone and I donated everything I had, it wasn't much but I felt it was all worth it, my parents never understood this thing, me donating for others, they consider themselves poor, I mean they are but not to the extent they think they are. I inherited that from my parents, blowing things out of proportions and overly exaggerate things. Anyway, I wanna donate everything I can to those in need but for that to happen I gotta get out of this group of people, not being in the need all the time myself. 

Although I want this post to be read by lots of people I know for sure that there a few people who will read it and leave me a message and for that I am thankful in advance, I just can't exist without them, without them I am nothing.

If you have something to say please do so, I want and I need your comments, they make me happy, they make me feel that I matter, even for a bit but I do matter. 

Be kind to one another and maybe someday you'll get to change a life.