I Wish You ...

... in the years to come (not just in 2012) to finish what you have started in the last few years. I wish you to celebrate the endings of beautiful things and events and celebrate new beginnings. When celebrating I wish you not to be alone, but be surrounded by people who love you, like you, cherish you, idolize you 'cause I can tell they will at least try not to hurt you. But if ...

  • if you're alone I wish you meet people who'll be there for you all the time

  • if you want to be happy I wish you meet people who'll make you happy, have little things with endless meaningfulness 

  • if you want money I wish to meet opportunities and catch them in one breath
I want you to be powerful the entire year, but just in case you run out of power come to me, I can loan you some. Every year is a perfect opportunity to find the true meaning of what friendship means, I wish 2012 will be your year.

My New Year's Resolution

When the end of a year is getting closer you begin to think of how it's started, you think of all that happened during the last 12 months, was is good ? Was is bad ?

Then you think of a new beginning, think of new changes, new things, a new plan and that's called - New Year's Resolution, it's like promising yourself to behave better in the New Year so you could end up on Santa's Good Kids lists only in much elaborate way.

All I can think of is that 2011 could've been better,a lot better, but as long as 2012 is going to be a little better I am going to call it a success, but I won't know until December 2012.

For the year to come I solemnly promise:

The Museum of Me

Months ago I got to experience this Facebook application that somehow keeps making me smile every time I use it. By giving it access to your Facebook account information (don't worry, it's safe) it creates a virtual museum of YOU.

Some of you , my dear Facebook friends, will catch sight of themselves as you my dear friends are a part of my past, present and future. Although some of you are (still) in my friends your part in my life is done. Thank you for passing through my life, but especially a thank those people who stayed.

Here is the video of The Museum of Me:

Don't Save It All For Christmas Day

Tomorrow some people celebrate with their families or friends or both Christmas. For some people it has some religious connotation, for others it's just Christmas, the magic period when you get gifts from your loved ones. It's the period of time when you sit quietly near the fireplace and listen to Christmas songs and restore all the power and energy you lost during the day at work or after dealing with brown nosing relatives.

Use this day to wish and say things that you only on special occasions, words like "I love you", "I cherish you" or "I miss you". It's a special day to give smiles to all people, to those who laugh but especially to those who cry. Don't save it all for Christmas day and give just a little love everyday.

For all of you who celebrate this day in any kind, I wish you:

  • a Merry Christmas ( a Happy New Year a bit later in the next week)
  • to be with your loved ones, whoever they are: brothers, sisters, parents, boyfriends, girlfriends, best friends, etc.

Favorite TV Shows or Best TV Shows

Up until now you've known me little, showing you the list of my favorite TV shows will help you shape the image of me a little bit closer to the true one (in case, of course, you want to).

See below a full list of shows I've watched and still watch, with details of their ratings, press and awards.

1. Grey's Anatomy - been active since 2005, now on its 8th season. The multiple award winning TV show averaged 22 million first season, on second and third season had even bigger ratings. That was about ratings. Now about the plot. It's about five interns, about their struggles to become surgeons, but also about their personal matters. No matter who you are you find yourself related to at least character. It's not that much about their professional lives as their personal lives and how manage or fail to manage what they face everyday. This show is full of tragedies, not made up but inspired on true stories, by watching and trying to understand you get immunized for similar situations in your own life. But also, you'll come to appreciate its humor. Great acting, great plot lines, great soundtracks. If you want a preview of the entire show watch this:

Also to see amazing scenes look here:

2. Desperate Housewives - active since 2004, now on its 8th and final season. You may be mislead by its title but I can assure it's not only about housewives, some of them work too :). There is comedy and drama - it's a dramedy. Filled with interesting plot lines and lots of cliffhangers. It's a show about families and how they struggle with their daily things, it's about children and different way of raising them, it's about right and wrong, and how you can make wrong right again. It's about people's mistakes, it show you the true definition of friendship, but more or less it shows you also what backstabbing means. This multiple award winning show (7 Emmys and 3 Golden Globes) teaches you valuable lesson without having go through all the bad things that happened to these characters. To watch a preview of this amazing show watch the video below.

3. FRIENDS - I've had my share of comedies but nothing compares to this one, it's truly the greatest TV comedy in the history. It ran between '94 and 2004, its finale was watched by 60 million viewers. This show it's filled with dozen of jokes per minute. It will blow you away with every single episode. I, for instance, watched it 5 times from its first episode till the last one, and I laughed as hard as I did when I watched it the first time. You'll learn on fast-track what true friendship means, it'll teach you how to stand for your friends, it'll teach you how to stay the same good friends for many years to come. It'll show you that falling in love with your best friend is possible, it'll give you comfort for the loss you have experienced and give you hope that true friendships may be around the corner.

4. House MD - a great competition for the aforementioned medical drama Grey's Anatomy, its ratings and success was not worse, sometimes better (and I am explaining it this way, people avoid feelings and run from crying scenes being to weak to face them). This show is based basically on one character - the sarcastic and deceitful Dr. Gregory House, who doesn't obey to the rules, either internal hospital rules or any other laws. People are trying to change him and make him a better man who would actually feel for his patients, despite the fact that he is only one who treats cases that no one else can, he is the genius of the diagnostics. Throughout the series you see him as a genius doctor and a drug addict (after suffering a trauma got addicted to Vicodin) who is uncertain about where this gift comes from, his awesomeness or his addiction to Vicodin, or both ? Watching this series you'll love his sarcastic sense of humor and his way of treating patients, who according to him everybody lies.

5. Suits - it's a drama on air since this year (we're still in 2011) and is about Mike Ross, a college dropout who's dreams of becoming a lawyer got ruined in some unfortunate circumstances and who makes a living taking LSATs for other students. Thankfully for his amazing memorizing skills gets hired in a law firm by Harvey Specter, one of New York City's top attorneys. Once Mike does not have a degree, he and Harvey pretend that Mike is a Harvard alumni. You'll find this series particularly interesting to watch grace to its characters chemistry, Mike's eidetic memory and law knowledge, Harvey's kicking-ass techniques and many other things. This series has been classified as a hit series of 2011 and already got nominated for its first Screen Actors Guild. Watch the promo below and be struck by the its genuine acting and performances.

Read this one already ? Have another one on its way to you.

What's your favorite show ? Would you or are you watching one of the above ?

If I Have a Million Dollars

Surfing the internet looking for subjects to write about, that would suit my blog I found something interesting and I chose to write about what if I had one million dollar.

We often think about this, about what if we never had financial issues every single day of our lives ?

What if we always had enough money ?

We may find out the answer at some point in our lives, or we just may never find out.

I, for instance, would buy a house in the suburbs of a big city, like Los Angeles or London., live in the suburbs and enjoy the big city from afar.

I would pay my acting classes and finally get the chance to act in TV shows such as House, Grey's Anatomy or Suits. To live that thrill every day, doing it with grace and dedication without having the feeling that is a paid job. Many actors are in the film industry just because the pay is good. For me acting is more than a job, it's a way of living the life. Believe or not, I act every day, pretending I am friends with people I actually hate, respecting even if is more of an act 'cause respect is the last thing they deserve, acting pleasantly among people who despise me and try to bring me down, but every now and then I remember a saying, if people are trying to bring you down it means you're above them.

Guide: Ce sa faci ca calculatorul sa ruleze mai rapid!

Sunt o persoana care intotdeauna, in masura posibilitatilor, ajuta semenii nostri, acest fapt se rasfringe si la armonizarea calculatoarelor cu al meu care se afla intr-o stare perfecta din punct de vedere al rularii rapide si eficiente. Nimic nu te ajuta mai mult decit propria experienta, dar daca aceasta iti lipseste o poti folosi pe a mea prin a vedea o serie de ajustari pe care ti-o propun mai jos.

Mi-am stricat calculatorul de sute de ori in cei 6-7 ani de cind il am in posesie, si nimic nu m-a ajutat mai mult decit posedarea limbii engleze la un nivel satisfacator si internetul.

Deseori vreai ca calculatorul tau sa ruleze ca in prima zi cind l-ai adus acasa, ce te sfatui mai jos ar putea sa ta aduca mai aproape de aceasta dorinta.

O buna parte din timp, din punct de vedere al Antivirusului calculatorul mi-a rulat pe ESET Nod32, care la vremea lui nu era mai rau decit Kaspersky. Acum ca pe piata a aparut Microsoft Security Essentials care pe linga faptul ca detecteaza 98.44% din virusi, viermii de calculator si Trojans, cit si 90.95% din softuri de spionaj si adware, dar si faza ca e complet gratuit. Poate fi descarcat de pe site-ul oficial Microsoft.

How Facebook affected my life!

A few decades ago if someone would have killed you socially you'd probably have to change schools or even cities to start your life all over again, 'cause there would not be any time to let things cool off and come back without being even noticed. Today we have Facebook.

As grateful as I am to Mark but I think the "birth" of Facebook was a round of  Russian roulette, it could have gone either way. I think his impact on humanity was more of an accident, a positive accident, which naturally happens one time in a million years. With this being said, no one (at least not me) is denying his giftedness.

Me: Hi, my name is Eugene, I'm a Face-oholic.
People: Hi Eugene.

Thankfully no one's liver has anything to suffer from. My socially-awkwardness has met this miracle a few years back and saved me for being socially dead. I don't like going to bars, nightclubs, I don't like big crowds at big concerts, I like enjoying my time at a good movie with my friends, or having them at my house and as stupid as it sounds, cook [for] them. Just kidding.

Facebook gave me a lot of [fake] friends, that if you look closely enough you'll a big haystack, from which, if you're lucky enough, you're going to find the needle, with whom you'll have long and weakly, sometimes boring and yet productive conversations.

Ginduri abrupte II (2)

Deseori am gânduri (filosofice) numai bune pentru a fi baza unor articole numai bune pentru blog-ul meu însa la fel de deseori ma găsesc într-o stare neinspirata incit nu pot crea un articole bine editate pornite de la acele gânduri, de aici mi-am și reamintit de un vechi articol în care mi-am expus în mod genial mai multe gânduri fără ca sa se amestece intre ele, gânduri abrupte, gânduri aparte, gânduri separate.

So let the thinking begin!

  • Numele meu este Eugeniu (grecescul Eugenios) din care "eu" înseamna "bine" și "gen" înseamnă "a naște, a zămisli, a produce", deci după logica greceasca cei care poarta acest nume au tendință (deși nu e garantat) de a face bine. Eehhh. Dintr-o logica mai moderna, Eu+geniu, oare pe cit de geniu pot eu fi sau sunt ca atare ? Oare cit de mult bine fac eu pentru alții ?
  • Niște evenimente recent m-au făcut sa ma gândesc la identitate și anume la acel set de caracteristici definitorii pe care le poseda fiecare din noi. Identitatea consta din individualitatea ta și pe cit de diferit de alții ești. Identitatea este felul în care te vezi sau te definești, sau rețeaua de valori și principii care iți structurează viata. A avea identitate înseamnă uniformitate în tot timpul indiferent de circumstanțe, identitatea este condiția unei persoane care este sine fără a pretinde de a fi ceva ce de fapt nu e; individualitate, personalitate. Nu accepta sub nici o forma ca cineva să-ți lezeze din individualitate, nu accepta sa fii uniformizat cu un șablon prestabilit, nu accepta sa fii "culcat pe patul lui Procust".

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Nowadays I'm in a mood for writing blog articles (that frankly are barely read, but still thankful for the 10 people who visit).

"I'm dreaming of a White Christmas, just like the one I used to know", these are some lyrics from Michael Bublé's songs, that somehow compensates for the lack of snow, although as I check everyday for the 15-day forecast it's almost certain we are going to have snow on the days of December 23rd to 25th. But the snow may come sooner, who knows.

Christmas and the New Year's Eve are coming on a running pace and still have to figure out where I am going to spend them, have to look for some friends to have me at their dinner tables, 'cause unfortunately there isn't going to be one in my home.

I think the time has come to look for a Christmas tree, or for its imitation to have it decorated, oh God, I can't wait to have Christmas lights on. These little things will come to compensate for many things in my life.

Quotes I - LI (1-51)

Most of these quotes describe the way I think, represent my way of being, my policies. Some of them are funny and yet true. Wanna know a bit more ? Read these quotes I collected on Facebook, God Bless Zuckerberg!

What if ...

Most of the time I think what if I was never supposed to live this life ? And if I am living it what if I am not cut up to actually live it ?

Some people or maybe most of them, want just to adjust just a little their lives to be better. I, want it to be entirely different and I don't need "it's not too late" kind of crap. I've been existing 8 192 days on this f***ing earth, but I've actually lived just a few, nor to say not one of them.

I know when to admit that is or isn't my fault, here, it is, but it's not entirely mine, I'd say more than that, it's my fault just a little. I don't want this life, I don't want it at all. I know, in another life I'd live it totally different and I bet I'd have a bigger impact on people.

I have a flame in my soul, too small to cause a fire, too big to die.

My dreams are dying, one by one, it doesn't necessarily mean that yours should too. If you have a dream pursue it no matter what, if you can and no one stands in your way do it, think of those who want but can't, you owe it to them. Make their dreams live through you. Make their lives mean something.

I am another drop in the ocean, insignificant.

Patrick Watson - The Great Escape

Pentru iubitorii de piese cu acorduri de pian!

Charlie Winston - She Went Quietly

She went quietly ... without a sound!

Germany - civilization!

De vreo 10 zile incoa sunt in Germania la niste prieteni totodata avind oportunitatea de a trai intr-o tara civilizata pentru citeva saptamini inainte de training-ul la care urmeaza sa particip din 28 noiembrie in Marea Britanie.

M-am asteptat sa ma simt ciudat insa nu a fost sa fie, ma simt ca si cum as fi trait aici dintotdeauna, m-am simtit bine parasind Moldova, si daca esti un patriot orb si vrei sa ma judeci pentru asta nu ai decit.

Aici fenomenul de a aduce totul la perfectiune e la o scara ceva mai larga, e un "virus" de care e molipsita o mare parte din populatie. Totul e curat, totul se recicleaza, oamenii sunt amabili, fiecare isi cauta de propriile treburi, nimeni nu are nimic cu tine, esti respectat pentru ceea ce esti tu.

Fiind moldovean si ne vazind multe in viata mea, pentru mine si o cladire de locuinte bine ingrijita pare a fi un punct de atractie, si ii fac poze din diferite unghiuri desi la o a doua privire te gindesti la ce bune am facut aceste poze.

Enough (2002)

Exista o limita cind vine vorba de violenta in familie, fie ca aceasta violenta se rasfringe asupra unuia dintre soti, fie deasupra copiilor, violenta e violenta si nu are nici o scuza, si cu totii stim violenta naste violenta, ceea ce semeni aia si vei stringe.

The Lost Valentine (2011)

Pe motivul romanului cu acelasi nume de catre James Michael Pratt, roman declarat Best-seller in 1998 de catre New York Times and USA Today.

Beastly (2011)

Friends with Celebrities.

For my entire life, I've treated friendships like relationships, in a weird way they're not very different. As for girlfriends/boyfriends you care for your friends, you take care of them.

I always screen my list of friends from zodiacal point of view, some people may consider it is bullshit. And I always mention that they should not confuse daily horoscope with zodiacal signs, where the first one it's complete non-sense. You may believe it or not, but take a second and think of someone you cannot stand, remember his/hers birthday and compare it to your sign, and you'll see you're not compatible.

Also, I always took a behind-the-curtain stand and analyze what's happening around and in front of me. Having a good memory (especially on what, who and when something has been done to me) I analyzed my friends and my "used to be" friends and think of why it didn't work out. As some sources say, the best friends for my sign (cancer) are the ones born in March (until 20, Pisces), May (until 20, Taurus) and November (until 21, Scorpio). I also am in good terms, generally with the ones from my own sign, Cancers, also with from Aquarius, Virgo and Sagittarius.

Making at least one visit on IMDb to look for the latest news in cinematography and watch the trailers for the upcoming movies, I also take a look on celebrities having their birthdays, sometimes I look surprised to know that some of them are born on certain days, but other times I think how good friends would we be if we were born in a perfect world.

All of the sudden I got the idea of making a list of the celebrities I'd be good buds with, I think why not ?! So, let's begin with Scorpios who proved to be my best friends.

If Only

The title of this article sounds like the movie that stars Jennifer Love Hewitt, a tragic love story. My life is not a love story, but most certainly is a tragic story.

Often, I wonder how my life would turn out if i were born elsewhere than Moldova ? Elsewhere than Eastern Europe ?

I guess on Earth you have 50/50 chances to be born on land of some luck, Western Europe, Unites States, China, Japan, Australia and the second 50% of being born in Africa, South America, Cuba, North Korea and so on.

From now on I'm going to start thinking that never is to late to do something you really love once nobody thinks I'm actually 22, people always tell me I'm at least 4 years younger than I look.

Life is a cruel joke!

Nu planificam sa scriu nimic, caci nu prea am cu ce sa ma laud. Insa sa ma pling de viata intotdeauna am despre ce, asa ca m-am gindit de ce nu. La urma urmei trebuie sa scot din mine energia negativa (daca exista desigur) undeva in univers caci la sincer, cam ma devoreaza pe dinauntru. Si dupa cum psihologi profesionisti nu exista deloc, fie sunt de calitate mediocra nu vad alta alternativa decit a scrie pe acest blog, care de la o vreme incoace incepe a semana tot mai mult cu un "Dear Diary" which even I, consider, is pathetic.

Viata mea e ca o noapte cu un cer cu o stea pe ici, pe colo, la fel de intunecata unde merg prin bezna dupa intuitie, unde stele sunt farime de fericire pe ici , pe colo, e ca o noapte care nu stiu cind se va termina.

O stea, o farima de fericire a fost training-ul din Georgia, unde pentru prima data intr-o lunga perioada de vreme am simtit ca contez, am intilnit oameni inteligenti, am avut sansa de a "calatori" in tarile lor de origine prin impartasirea experientelor lor. De fiecare data cind plec intr-o tara straina am oportunitatea de a incerca o multime de lucruri pentru prima oara si imi dau seama cit de tare sunt in urma europenilor, si totusi inainte cu un inch in fata marii majoritati de moldoveni.

Rich & Poor

In this piece of article I'm gonna write about something I am very pissed off. Very often I am pissed off about something, so no surprise there, but still give yourself five second to read it.

 It's annoying how Hollywood celebrities whine about damages to their multimillionaire properties while millions of people in Africa don't have a roof above their heads at all.

It's bugging me how they talk about eating water-melons in the middle of the night because they're pregnant while daily 2 500 african kids die from lack of clean watter and food, as some people said they choose between unclean and unhealthy water and dying from thirst, a tough position to be in.

I hate millionaires and billionaires as they literally suck all the money in the world into their accounts. For example, Carlos Slim Helu & family's net worth is 74 BILLION dollars.

This makes me think about those people who have an expiring date on their lives. I live in a poor country, and yet I have the chance to have a few meals a day and drink clean water (still, if I buy it bottled from stores). A few days ago I was having a conversation with a friend about whether there is or isn't God, and I said there isn't because if He exists then why a billion people  don't have water for their basic needs ? Don't they pray to God or something everyday ?


My actual hand-writing
Few days ago I was bitching about not getting selected for EVS projects, but often I think why would they ?

Well, besides deserving one and having all the right qualities I am whinny and victimizing myself all the time.

I am picky and I have a lot of unresolved issues.

I don't know who I am and that scares the crap out of me.

I have no one to believe in me, to invest in me besides a few good words that don't mean anything, sometimes a slap on my face.

I don' wanna die, don't wanna live either. Too coward to die, to scared to live. I'm scared I'm too screwed up to have have the chance to live someday again.

If someone has an island and wants to send me there for good I'd be happy to pack my things tonight, and introduces the same numbers (4 8 15 16 23 42 a.k.a. Lost) every few hours, wanna send me on the moon ? Fine by me.

European Voluntary Service - Is it for everyone ?

European Voluntary Service - Is it for everyone ? Here is a question I've been asking myself for quite  a while now. In this article I'll give a try to answer this question.

According to Youth in Action Programme Guide "Youth in Action is the Programme the European Union has set up for young people. It aims to inspire a sense of active European citizenship, solidarity and tolerance among young Europeans and to involve them in shaping the Union's future. It promotes mobility within and beyond the EU's borders, non-formal learning and intercultural dialogue, and encourages the employability and inclusion of all young people, regardless of their educational, social and cultural background: Youth in Action is a Programme for all!

Every year, thousands of projects are submitted by promoters in order to get financial support from the Programme; a selection process aims at granting the best projects."

Well, in theory it sound nice, but let's take a look on what European Voluntary Service (EVS) is particularly about.

I'm everything I am Because you loved me

Someday I will want to say these words, hope there will be someone to say these words to ...

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

I don't know what am I doing wrong ....

For quite a while now I've been trying to apply for an EVS (European Voluntary Service) and to be exact two years have past and all I can be proud of is that I made it to the finalists a dozen times, I had many interviews (written or by phone), sent a lot of Motivation letters and CVs but not once, no one told me what I have been doing wrong because I did not get selected for a project.

It's frustrating writing and re-editing millions of times your motivation letter, adjusting it to every project in part, expressing your motivation for a lot of projects, fall in love with them, dreaming with your eyes open, planning activities, reading dozen of times the guidelines, the Youth in Action programme, imagining yourself participating at meetings, making yourself useful.

I think I did a pretty damn good job writing my Motivation letter and as underestimating myself I think I deserve an EVS project where I could grow, where I could change lives, where I could give someone a life meaning. In my previous article I was saying how I felt discriminated because of the history my country is carrying, a post-soviet union country, where democracy and human rights are not fully known.

Although I have double citizenship it seams crazy mentioning in your motivation letter or your CV, I was born in Moldova, but I got Romanian citizenship too, as my grandparents before Second World War had Romanian citizenship too. Many people wish to have an European citizenship in order to travel, get relocated, get a job, I, on the other side, have it and still feel stuck.

I've been in a selection committee before, I know what it takes to select participants for one project or another, but every time, almost every time, I've been trying to give feedback, to help participants improve their actions, improve their applications and apply again. I always try to give feedback , either it's a project or a everyday life situation.

If I had the chance ...

... I would get my passports and travel, try new voyage packages for travel agencies, spend hours in the airport as well as in the air, meet new people, try new cultures

... I would become an air pilot, fly people safely to their destinations

... I'd become a television actor, teach people valuable lessons through the art of the small screen

... Be a trainer, somewhere abroad, a trainer in youth policies, volunteering and other domains

... I'd like to learn a new language, probably Spanish

... Buy a house in London

... found a Charity organization to militate for a satisfying living standard for poor people in Africa

... I'd like to be a part of a music band, as a back-vocalist or maybe being a part of choir

Trust (2010 film)

Istoria unei fete obisnuite din Statele Unite, cu parinti obisnuiti, familie obisnuita in care domina increderea si intelegerea.


Cind sufletul mi-e in zbucium ma afund in muzica care si in cele mai grele momente in aduc multe rivnitele momente de liniste sufleteasca ...

Cu jumatatea mea de octava (la singular) incerc sa fredonez melodia ... si incerc sa sper, desi esuez, ca intr-o buna zi voi privi in urma si voi realiza ca ceea prin ce am trecut e doar o mica parte din viata mea si care e de domeniul trecutului ...

Cineva spunea ca e loc sub soare pentru toti, desi de 22 de ani incoace nu mi-l pot gasi ....

Ben E. King Amor

Great song, clasica anilor '60, 1961 ca sa fiu exact !

Kobuleti, here I come!

I guess, dupa mai mult de jumatate de an, din nou, am posibilitatea de a parasi hotarele tarii, si totul datorita Danielei Alexeiciuc :)

Am posibilitatea sau mai bine zis oportunitatea de a participa la training-ul "A EUROPE OF CITIZENS – A VISION FOR A NEAR FUTURE" care va avea loc in orasul Kobuleti, oras pe malul Marii Negre, Georgia intre 8 si 15 septembrie.

A trecut ceva vreme de la ultima oportunitate de a participa la un proiect organizat ca la carte si finantat de societatea Slovaco-Georgiana, therefore, orice training organizat bine are tendinta de a deveni traditie, ca si cursul de liderism organizat de tinerii din or Singerei de altfel.

Stuck in the clouds

Apparently, for a few years now, I am stuck in the clouds, I try (or maybe I don't) to let go of my dreams but I fail miserably each time.

I am the one to blame (or at least half the blame it's mine) my dreams don't come true, and probably most of them never will  and that's what is killing me the most, it's eating away.

I guess my depression inspires me to write this kind of articles, sad music, sad rhythms bring me peace and say "it's ok, ... it's ok".

This world it's not mine, not even a piece of it, it doesn't belong to me as well as I don't belong to it. And yet I am stuck in it, I wanna leave but the world won't let me go ...

It's like I am the main character in a sad movie that never ends ...


Stiu ca vazusem pe blogul cuiva dar nu-mi amintesc la cine si am hotarit ca voi scrie un articol similar.

Uneori te gindesti cu care celebritate de la Hollywood ai cel mai mult in comun in ce priveste fizicul si My Heritage este instrumentul care ne ajuta in aceasta directie.

Desi personal, as vrea sa fiu si eu o celebritate nu numai sa seaman cu una :D

Today is my birthday!

Specific unui rac, ziua de nastere nu e tocmai cea mai fericita zi din an, de ziua de nastere (racii) simt indeosebi ca lipseste acel ceva, de ziua de nastere se gindesc ce nu au realizat pina atunci fara sa se gindeasca ca totusi au avut un impact enorm asupra unor persoane. Realizeaza ca au mai imbatrinit cu un an desi in suflet sunt la fel de tineri, desi sunt mai intelepti, cu inca 365 de zile de experienta.


A few dozens of articles back I wrote about the things I hate, today something got me inspired to write about the things I love

I love sunsets, dawns

I love the sky, especially when it’s reddish or yellowish

I love taking pictures of flowers, reddish-yellowish skies

I love bright colors


Grey's Anatomy
We all have dreams, we all want things to come true, yet, in most of the time we don’t know how to make our dreams come true.

Me, for instance, (at the risk of sounding incredibly stupid) I love acting, though I never acted before, I love singing and yet I only sang during a shower or quietly in my room fearing getting mocked.

Most of the time I wonder if I have or not what it takes to be actor or a part of a music band, I can’t imagine my life without music and movies, TV shows, my life is surrounded by these every single day, my day starts with the sound of music and ends with a good Grey’s Anatomy episode.

Cetatean al UE ? Oportunitati de studii!

M-am gândit ca v-as putea oferi niște informații care le dețin cu privire la posibilitatea de a aplica la studii (Undergraduate sau Postagraduate) în statele europene, dar personal ma voi axa pe cele din Marea Britanie.

În mod cert, nici o universitate din Moldova nu se poate compara cu cele din UK, deci, reiese ca se poate de aplicat la orișicare universitate și veți avea atuul de a va lauda ca studiați într-o universitate pur englezeasca :-P (asta pe lingă studiile de calitate pe care le veți primi și miile de oportunități în timpul și după studii)

Luind in considerare ca am o experiența destul de proasta în ce privește studiile în RM și mai ales ca habar nu am ce sa fac cu viata mea am decis sa fac (again) research despre studiile unica țara din Europa care se ridica la nivelul așteptărilor mele, si cer scuze ca nu sunt asa de patriot precum s-au așteptat unii.

Recent, am obținut cetățenia romana, părintii mei având-o de peste 10 ani a venit timpul ca sa o redobândesc ca în cele din urma sa mi se deschide zeci de posibilitate unde majoritatea din ele având durata de viata limitata din lipsa de fonduri. Si totuși, a persuada uneori îți da rezultate.

Let's get it started.

Questions ....

Why ? A question that most of the time is left unanswered. Nobody cares about you unless you give them something, gossip or money, just not to bore them with sad stories about you, about you little pathetic life.

I mean, why ? why is so much sadness around us ? why are we so selfish to spread happiness and joy all the way around ?

Why don't smile more often and not just in the mirror to ourselves ? Why so much selfishness ?

People fade away all the time, and that's our fault. Most of us think the less of us the better. Isn't there enough air to breath for everybody ? Aren't there enough money for everyone ?

There are no limits.

Doctors shouldn't be the only ones to take an oath, we all should not do any harm to any of us, therefore do good, share moments, reduce the solitude in our souls, do little but meaningful stuff.

This world is not created for every one of us, this world is way to much unbalanced ...

Give and do good - is the key of survival ...

This is me!

Dear people,

Preparing to become one day a public person, a politician or an actor, I have a confession to make, well, I won’t go bald and say it, you’ll have to figure it out by yourselves.

Over the years I had many friends, I considered and still consider that I am a good friend, I will wake up at 6 am and record missed interviews at the national radio, look all over the internet for things that my friends can’t find, printing paper works for free, going with my friends wherever they want just no to feel alone, have long boring talks and not complain, giving a shoulder to cry on (even if I was the one who need a shoulder most of the time:-p), giving support, sometimes just being there for them, not judging, just being there.

I have flaws, many of us do, actually all of us do, I just have a little less than others, yes, I am that good. I can’t accept or get over betrayal, can’t forgive or forget, well, it’s not entirely true, I can make exceptions but it’s not happening very often.

Ginduri abrupte

articol insipirat pe seama unui articol a unui ex-prieten

  • 25 de ore din 24 incerc sa explic de ce se intimpla anumite lucruri, le caut intr-un fel explicatie, macar ca nu intotdeauna exista una, si totusi incerc sa le explic, le caut un rationament macar ca sunt o persoana emotionala si sentimentala, trasaturi care din pacate in mare parte aici sunt detestabile, da ma starui si eu sa traiesc cu acest blestem  
  • imi place sa cred ca sunt o persoana formidabila si extraordinara in sensul larg al cuvintului, niciodata nu am acceptat sa fiu ordinar si niciodata nu voi accepta sa ma contopesc cu multimea, ceva ma face sa cred ca merit mai mult, ceva ma face sa cred ca merit sa fiu vazut si stiut de intreaga lume, macar ca spun ca nu-mi pasa daca toti ma vor place sau nu undeva imi pasa, este iarasi un lucru cu care va trebui sa ma invat sa traiesc

This is me!

Business-minded Pragmatist  You have an outgoing personality and you enjoy working with others and getting things done.  You also think that your time is valuable and that you deserve to make a good living for the work that you do.
Because you are so skilled at motivating yourself to succeed, negotiating, making deals, and working with people, a natural career choice for you might be sales.

4 am ...

Un articol de ora 3.46 am …

Nu e normal ca un om sa treaca prin durere singur, daca nu a ajuns sa bea pastille sau sa-si taie venele deja ii putem da ceva merite, a dat dovada de ceva putere insa nu cred ca pare a fi foarte departe de ziua cind va deveni mai putin omenesc, caci durerea in surplus „taie” din suflet ...

In prezent si in viitor devine din ce in ce mai greu de a cere de la oameni putin ajutor, citeodata sintem ca niste bebelusi care ne invatam a merge, mergem mergem si cadem jos, si pe cind un copil isi are mama si tata sa-i ajute din spate, unii din noi nu avem pe nimeni si asta ma intristeaz cel mai mult. Mama si tata nu ne pot fi alaturi intotdeauna, uneori ca nu pot, uneori ca nu vreau si aici in mod normal ar trebui sa intervina ingerii nostri, adica prietenii care cei adevarati devin tot mai putini si mai putini.

Deseori imi doresc sa devin o stana de piatra care nu simte nimic, care trece pe linga copii vagabonzi fara sa-si sparga ochii in lacrimi, care sa nu dea o para chioara pe nimeni, care sa mearga ziua la serviciu si sa faca bani pe seama altora, caci acesti oameni traiesc cel mai bine, si cind ajung la batrinete nu le pasa daca au trait bine sau nu, ei pur si simplu au trait, si dupa cum ei nu au dat doua parale pe cineva asa nimeni nu da doua parale pe ei si toti sunt impacati.

“Cit de inteligent sunt” sau “cite defecte am”

E usor sa crezi ca esti mai inteligent decit jumatate din oamenii care-i intilnesti zi de zi luind in considerare ca acestea din urma nu stralucesc in materie de cunostinte, rostesc absurditati cu care la prima vedere nici nu face sa intri in polemica. 

E de inteles cind multi nici nu aspira la mai mult rationalizind ca oricum nu ai sanse viabile pentru un viitor frumos, ci doar pentru un prezent in care te zbati sa supravietuiesti, dar asta mai mult suna ca o scuza, deci ce poti face sau ce e mai bine sa faci, sa ii ignori sau sa intri in discutii aprinse in incercarea de a le da „bucati” din inteligenta ta ca doar pentru asta traim, de a invata pe noi insisi dar si pe altii, ca la urma urmei nu putem tine un dar doar pentru noi, cum poti altfel sa-l valorifici daca nu il scoti la vitrina. 

Iti spui si ti se spune ca ar fi mai usor de trait daca mai multi ar fi ca tine, calculat, modest cu doze de indrazneala chibzuita, cu grija fata de ceilalti, amabil, respectuos in limite elementare, in echilibru intre individualitate si ordinar. E un pic revoltator cind ti se fac observatii cu referire la inteligenta ta, oare la noi in tara e un defect sa fii inteligent? 

E posibil sa fii inteligent peste limita admisibila?

to be continued ...